you are a loving person, what people says doesn't change that. i suppose life is a big matter of perspective =/ and your actions of helping yourself to get out of that 'rut' may appear to have a whole different meaning to someone else. those lyrics really made me think about your situation, and i think some people may be giving you less credit than you deserve. i'm sorry for some of the things that you've had to go through because of other peoples stupid mistakes, and also really sorry for the ones you've had to go through because of your own. songs really do have a way of explaining a situation. i want you to know, that know matter what you think or the actions i or you have taken... that you mean so much to me. i wish the best for you, and it's hurts to know you aren't getting it. i know you won't come to me about your problems,  but if you ever need to talk or any other sort of help i would do it to the best of my ability. you have so much potential, and you are able to rise above things. sometimes there may be things holding you back, just never stop trying. i love you izzy :(

i really love you. a lot. and i am so proud of you. still somewhat sad, i wish i could be a better friend.

:)

well, at least you know what direction you're in now, even if you don't know where you're going.